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i am tired of holding trans women crying
no
i am tired of seeing trans women only have each other to hold while crying
no
im tired
to see you not show up for her
to see you throw her away
to see you look at her as a burden.
no
im tired of being a trans woman
no
i am tired of being treated
like the part of the community that is dying,
molding,
that is unwanted, unloved, not worth
no
i am tired of all my trans woman friends being suicidal
no
i am tired of them being made to feel suicidal because–
no
i am mad that you are not doing anything
but perpetuating the problem
watching, laughing, excluding, passively
fabricating a world where we don’t
no
i am so angry and sad and mad that
you are not holding trans women
while they cry and break
because i cannot keep doing this
i cannot keep breaking.
no.
they cannot keep breaking too.
no.
you keep telling me
that my trauma
no
that my fear
no
that my experiences of violence–
no, no, no, no, no
that my
no.
i distance myself from love
because i know it will feel easier when you throw me away like they all do
no
like we’re all thrown away
no
trans women are the problem
no.
but, how much do you really love trans women? how much do they know it while here?