To Carry Myself

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We are in the woods—

My cousin and I,

and the man who shares my life.

We have gone to submerge ourselves in greenery and growth,

In Renaissance opposites,

Remember-you-will-live.

Ahead they talk, I think, of NPR,

And I watch my feet for slips

And snakes.

These refuge woods contain such dozen lives—

That heron’s grace,

This lichen’s eternity,

And a shrub of growths called—

So says the sign—

Piggy-Back-Plant—

Youth on Age.

And us it contains,

In our waterproof coats and rubber-lined soles.

We crouch at the edge of the marsh and listen for frogs.

Instead we hear a buzzing from a pocket.

My husband’s brother is calling.

He is staying with us, and he needs to know what is

The WiFi password.

It’s on a Post-It on the mantel. We hang up.

I can’t see any frogs, I say.

My cousin says they sense danger.

I am no danger to frogs, I say.

A minute later, I remember.

Except, I say, we are killing them all.

He nods.

We turn for home.



Beej Ann Bauer (she/her)