On film

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The lost weekends
Have lost me
Those versions of myself
Only in his memory

A hot desert night
A cottage by the sea
So many different characters
Fulfilling every need

A daughter
A mistress
A bride-to-be

Who were they touching
When they were touching me?

Sweaty hands and cover bands
Rubber banded cash
Fucking in the photo booth
Virginity and red wine and techies
And hotel swimming pools
And arcades and fishing and Phoenix
And farm towns and hole-in-the walls
With pizza you could pass to the bar
From the parlor next door
And the fucking capitol buildings

At the center of it all
Where their arms held her
And their hearts were beating
Fast and hard
Like they wanted to
Break You
In Half

When you put your ear to their chest
A seashell whispering

No
SCREAMING
Of the ocean
A faraway dream
A figment
A fantasy
Forever
Gone-gone
Gone-gone
Gone-gone